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Today was not one of my best days of being alive. I guess 4 hours of Science and 2 hours of Math can help do that to a person. I pretty much wanted to kill myself in all my classes, I played a lot of calculator games, and read Harry Potter in Math. I kind of had to pay attention in Biology because we were working in partners, physics I paid attention probably half the time, and math not at all because we are doing stuff I’ve already learned so I can’t really bring myself to focus.

Although I am very happy to have friends, today I just felt kind of awkward and kind of like a burden. I just kind of stand there while they talk, and since I can’t follow everything they’re saying I can’t really jump in on the conversation. I also don’t really know what to say when I’m walking with one of my friends alone. I hate those kinds of situations anyways (like the “I kind of know you” stage where you don’t really know what to talk about), so you can imagine that it’s must worse in French. It’s just kind of awkward and I really long for good, old friends that I can have a real conversation with. “Awkward social situations build character” so maybe it’s good for me…anyways I’m trying not to worry too much about it, I’ve only been here 2 weeks, I have a solid 9.5 months to become fluent/jump in on conversations. But I did spend like 3 hours at the Café with my friends (didn’t really talk too much, but it’s good to listen, cause when my listening improves then I can speak more etc.) and I’m going to the country house this weekend, which should be very relaxing and reenergizing, as I am very tired. Although, school is not done for the week as I have 2 hours of P.E tomorrow. YAY!
Brent